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Battle (0): Cancer (1)

It’s taken me a few days to pull myself together enough to write this one. After another three-week wait, we returned to the scene of the crime to…

Let’s try Again

So it’s PET scan attempt number two. Yet another day avoiding pregnant ladies. I kept imagining what I’d say if a pregnant woman sat beside me on the…

Constant exhaustion

I am now back at work full time. I am TRYING to stick to Lessons 24, 25 and 26, but I am slipping back into my pre-Apocalypse work…

The Longest 48 Hours In The History Of Time

I have now read the entire Cancer Research website on failed treatment. I had trawled the Macmillan forums for other people who had failed the chemo/radio exams. I…

The Call

Normally I keep my phone off during meetings, but I had set my iPhone to MAX volume with a siren ringtone if the NHS called. I was in…

The Long Long LONG wait

To be fair, to Dr Lump didn’t realise how literal I take things. She said the results normally come in about a week and that I’d get a…

Back To Work

My wardrobe hadn’t been updated since pre-Covid and I had finally accepted that the “round” silhouette only really works for snowmen and circus clowns. Now, having lost 5½…

The Big Scan

Things have actually been getting better and better. I can now walk for about 45 minutes without fainting, collapsing, or needing revived with a biscuit. The New Family…

The Tube Extraction

Very little happens for ages after treatment. The days all blur into the same crappy routine: sleep, take pills, walk a tiny bit further than yesterday (usually to…

The Big Sleep

Something they tell you, repeatedly, is that the effects don’t stop when treatment stops. That would be far too easy. Instead, you’re informed (with suspicious cheerfulness) that things…